Friday, May 18, 2007

A simple question.

How do you tell a person that you have had enough of them in your life?

I am not talking about those people who honest and truly you have had enough of--the people you wish you did not work with, the people you should not have dated, the people who cut you off in traffic.

I am talking about the people you love. What I am wondering is, when do you say, if you are in a position of having to say, I am ready to go now. I will not see you again. You and I both know this and it is the way it is.

How do you say to this person, thank you for everything you have done to make my life richer, to be a very real piece of my experience on this earth. Thank you for being one who had the brilliant smile, one whose voice always lit up when I walked in the room, one who made me feel so valued, so precious. Thank you, and now I have had enough, and I am going on my way, so that you can do the ugly things you have to do between now and the end of your life, but I will not have to see them. How do you say to that person, I have more important things to do now? Than spend days with you as your body betrays you? Than deal with what those drugs are doing to your brain, even as they are helping you deal with that pain? How do you say, I am going back to my life now.

Can someone please tell me this?

4 comments:

MartyTheFool said...

Oh Isis,

This sounds BAD. I think I know exactly what you mean though. I don't 'who' it is your are referring to, but maybe it doesn't matter.

I hope it gets easier for you soon. Sometimes just saying it the way it is..... At least it's a start.

I'm glad you got your line out. I hope you feel somewhat empowered by that fact.

NCMarcus said...

My heart goes out to you and yours.

kp said...

an excellent question indeed. please let me know if you find an answer. or one to how to do so when you cannot get there to see said person.

Isis said...

i am starting to suspect there is not a good answer. Life is frustrating this way.